Epic ( I can't think of any better title? )

Assalamualaikum..
Hello..

Lama tak buka blog ni. And tut tut..bila bukak-bukak, nampak latest entry from my sahabat - Kupu-kupu Hitam. Her post is always inspiring. Never fail.

 - Remember our plan..shush! it's between you and me! Girls' territory -

Well, let's get back to business.

Well, it's almost mid - June ! I repeat ALMOST MID - JUNE! The time flew so fast. I feel that it ain't 86400 seconds in a day anymore ( thanks to Kris Allen because i can convert 24 Hour to seconds in

just 0.000001 µs ). And next monday, I'll have an english test and on that next Thursday too, i will sit for Bio mini test and Maths test. How cool is that?

Okay. For instance, sitting for a test is not cool! Memorizing all those facts on genetics, differentiation and write-an-absolute-fine-essay are truly " stress-licious ". Imagine, a thick-fat Campbell book to be read, maths to work on and English to brainstorm with..that's pre-med for the world. I've been here for 2 months and as far as i could tell is, follow your dreams. 

Whatchu wanna be? If you asked me, what my dream is? You guess might say that i will be a doctor..Amin~. But did you know, that this girl here, actually dreams to become an engineer?  When i was 12, i started to get to know what car is. The machine that left me in a great wonder.

But on one fine day, my dad told me that he wanted me to be a doctor.It was due to my injury and my lifestyle that is not so outdoorsy. I'm lacking of the qualities that an engineer should have. That's what my dad said. I trust his word and started to dive into a profession called  doctor. A rough fact about being a doctor is one must value lives. That's what I've known since i was a lil kid. 

As i grow up, i learn that life is valuable indeed. I've seen worst. I wanted to share with all of you about that but i respect my best friend private life. Speaking about my best friend, she's gonna fly to USA for her tertiary education. Bravo! But she is gonna spend 3/2 years in Malaysia for A-level. Well, i miss her so much. Okay, back on track. Why life is valuable? A typical question, " can money buy life ? " .. Sure if you got money. It means, if you have money, you can get a better healthcare. But the question is can it buys life? No! If it does, there's no value of being a doctor. Okay, what doctor has to do with life? The doctors give their best to save lives, just like money does. Do you know what's the different between money and doctors? Doctors are human while money is inhuman. So, justify it yourselves. 

Engineer and doctor are interrelated. Okay, this one find out your own points. I'm not giving a lecture here. I, sometimes, do doubts myself. Can i do it? Is it the right choice? The worst of all is that I afraid if i fail to save a life. How am i gonna cope with that? Doctors interact with human but engineers interact with machine. Machines do not feel the pain but human do. How about the patient's family? It's such a hard job. I'm gambling with lives, do I? No! I should give my best but at the end it's fated. Destined.

The television shows always portray the life of a doctor as luxurious, glamorous and eminent. But i find it ridiculous. I'm a pre-med student and I've found myself in a vasoconstriction..wait..I'm abusing the bio term. But nevermind, this is not an English class. But I'll get used to it ( pre-med ). I'm fated to be in pre-med. It's almost Mid - June. There's no such thing as changing to another course. It is such a waste as July will be my final exam for semester one. 

One day, I'll make you proud.

I'll make you proud.

Amin ~

SuperSaturday#cerita rojak aku.

dengan nama ALLAH yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani,....

Lama.

Lama.Sangat lama,berhari,berbulan,bertahun,berdekad,berabad,berabad abad aku tak jenguk bloggy nih.Belog yang lagi satu tu tok soh cakap lah,memang zaman berzaman dah aku tak jenguk.Masa nampaknya memerlukan saya untuk laksanakan perkara yang lebih penting. =')

Kelihatannya, virus burung hantu makin tersebar hingga menjadi parah dalam tubuh badan aku sekarang ni.Dan aku rasa,virus ni dah tak boleh nak di delete dah.Mungkin kena telan clorox mak aku dulu kot baru boleh hilang.

okeh,cuti lagi tinggal sehari.Cuti?tak rasa macam cuti pon.Jam biologi aku  bermula dari pagi hingga ke pagi seterusnya sentiasa dipenuhi dengan macam macam tugasan.Bermula dari kemas rumah,itu ini itu ini,hinggalah ke tugasan lain,aku memang busy.Ececeh..lagak busy aku macam mengalahkan perdana menteri saja. :3

hmm..eh,senyap je abang burn ngan star shooter.ape cite sahabat seblog aku nih.Moga baik baik saja hendaknya =')

RINDU.

Eceh...

rindu aku tak? rindu tak? mestila rindu.

apa rindu ni?kenapa mesti rindu? entah,aku tak tahu,yang aku tahu,aku pernah rasa rindu,bukan sekali,tapi berkali kali,tapi aku tak pernah pulak terfikir kenapa mesti rindu.Ye,ye,aku memang rindu.Aku rindukan semua orang,kenapa boleh rindu ni?apa yang aku rindukan sebenar nyer ni? * fail BM aku,jom terjun bangunan*

Bagi aku,rindu ni kompleks halnya.Hurmm..subjektif gitu la.Lain orang akan lain pendapatnya.Its depend on how you define 'rindu' by your own way.

Macam sekarang,banyak benda dan hal yang aku rindukan.Sebahagiannya memori yang dah lepas.Rindukan momen-momen bahagia bersama manusia manusia yang pernah hadir dan pergi dari hidup aku.Dan rindu tu akan jadi tersangat sangat ekstrem rasanya .bilaman yang dirindui itu sudah pergi tinggalkan aku dari dunia yang fana ni.*alfatihah*Hmm...serius,sangat sangat rindukan mereka. *feeling now is sedih*

ALLAH bagi kita hati.Dalam hati tu ada perasaan.Bukan satu,bukan dua,bukan tiga,bukan empat,bukan lima.Tapi... ? entah,aku tak pasti berapa jumlah yang tepat untuk macam macam jenis segala perasaan yang ALLAH anugerahkan.Dan salah satu daripada perassan tu ialah rindu. 

hmm.aku tak tahu kenapa malam ni tak de idea sangat nak menulis.Lambat lambat je papan kekunci diketuk.Biasa kalau idea terlebih sangat memang melalak la aku ketuk keyboard nih.Selamat kau keyborad malam ni.Mungkin kepala otak aku terlalu berat memikirkan program minggu depan agaknya.Masih belum beres even setiap hari dalam cuti 2 minggu ni sangat sangat aku manfaatkan untuk persiapan program tu.Bukan apa,kalau boleh semampu aku nak bagi yang terbaik untuk program tu nanti.

Tak rasa ke entry aku kali ni macam rojak? macam macam yang keluar,,kejap luahan hati,kejap mengarut mengabang,kejap itu kejap ini.Ni kalau betol betol rojak ni mesti macam macam jenis buah yang ada dalam rojak nih.Epal,anggur,buah dragon,buah jambu batu,buah nenas,oren,kiwi,mempelam,delima,durian.Durian? haha,buah rojak versi aku sangat specal ada durian.*tak boleh nak imagine macam mana rasanya*

nota si nenek kebayan:

hidup ni tak lama,sekejap je,sedar kah aku yang dunia ni hanya sementara,akhirat nanti yang kekal abadi?sedarkah aku ? 

p/s: To those with the wish that school holidays should be longer,just to let you know that, actually ....
      we are sharing the same wish. * feeling great*

btw tajuk entry aku kali ni aku tak pasti datang dari mana.Rasa macam nak terjun kolam je bila tengok tajuk entry kali ni.Doakan aku berubah di entry seterusnya.insha ALLAH.