Epic ( I can't think of any better title? )

Assalamualaikum..
Hello..

Lama tak buka blog ni. And tut tut..bila bukak-bukak, nampak latest entry from my sahabat - Kupu-kupu Hitam. Her post is always inspiring. Never fail.

 - Remember our plan..shush! it's between you and me! Girls' territory -

Well, let's get back to business.

Well, it's almost mid - June ! I repeat ALMOST MID - JUNE! The time flew so fast. I feel that it ain't 86400 seconds in a day anymore ( thanks to Kris Allen because i can convert 24 Hour to seconds in

just 0.000001 µs ). And next monday, I'll have an english test and on that next Thursday too, i will sit for Bio mini test and Maths test. How cool is that?

Okay. For instance, sitting for a test is not cool! Memorizing all those facts on genetics, differentiation and write-an-absolute-fine-essay are truly " stress-licious ". Imagine, a thick-fat Campbell book to be read, maths to work on and English to brainstorm with..that's pre-med for the world. I've been here for 2 months and as far as i could tell is, follow your dreams. 

Whatchu wanna be? If you asked me, what my dream is? You guess might say that i will be a doctor..Amin~. But did you know, that this girl here, actually dreams to become an engineer?  When i was 12, i started to get to know what car is. The machine that left me in a great wonder.

But on one fine day, my dad told me that he wanted me to be a doctor.It was due to my injury and my lifestyle that is not so outdoorsy. I'm lacking of the qualities that an engineer should have. That's what my dad said. I trust his word and started to dive into a profession called  doctor. A rough fact about being a doctor is one must value lives. That's what I've known since i was a lil kid. 

As i grow up, i learn that life is valuable indeed. I've seen worst. I wanted to share with all of you about that but i respect my best friend private life. Speaking about my best friend, she's gonna fly to USA for her tertiary education. Bravo! But she is gonna spend 3/2 years in Malaysia for A-level. Well, i miss her so much. Okay, back on track. Why life is valuable? A typical question, " can money buy life ? " .. Sure if you got money. It means, if you have money, you can get a better healthcare. But the question is can it buys life? No! If it does, there's no value of being a doctor. Okay, what doctor has to do with life? The doctors give their best to save lives, just like money does. Do you know what's the different between money and doctors? Doctors are human while money is inhuman. So, justify it yourselves. 

Engineer and doctor are interrelated. Okay, this one find out your own points. I'm not giving a lecture here. I, sometimes, do doubts myself. Can i do it? Is it the right choice? The worst of all is that I afraid if i fail to save a life. How am i gonna cope with that? Doctors interact with human but engineers interact with machine. Machines do not feel the pain but human do. How about the patient's family? It's such a hard job. I'm gambling with lives, do I? No! I should give my best but at the end it's fated. Destined.

The television shows always portray the life of a doctor as luxurious, glamorous and eminent. But i find it ridiculous. I'm a pre-med student and I've found myself in a vasoconstriction..wait..I'm abusing the bio term. But nevermind, this is not an English class. But I'll get used to it ( pre-med ). I'm fated to be in pre-med. It's almost Mid - June. There's no such thing as changing to another course. It is such a waste as July will be my final exam for semester one. 

One day, I'll make you proud.

I'll make you proud.

Amin ~